My Unrequited Love [Reader x Levi x Petra] Chap. 2

My Unrequited Love: Chapter 2 - Love is War


That was what I recall, when I first entered the Scouting Legion. Feelings, exploding up so sudden that it was almost out of control. Sudden doubts, fears...and jealousy; started to devour me slowly. I patiently waited for someone to rescue me. Sadly, none ever came...

I was hoping it would be him, the guy whom I wanted to know so much. It's quite true of what they say; curiosity killed the cat...I can relate to the saying, what I knew almost killed me...

Days, weeks...even months that I stayed there, I counted it all in my head. I seem to be a person running after time, but no...I was just trying to memorize all the little things that often happen every now and then. I became friends with the senior soldiers...most of them are veterans so I refer to them as seniors, out of respect.

One of the seniors I befriended was the girl I met named Petra Ral, though she insisted that I call her Petra. I the uneasy feeling I had when I first met her never left. But, maybe...just maybe, I learned to get along with her since she is very nice and often works with effort. I also learned that the mysterious guy's name was Levi. A very unique name...not many uses that name. Also, Petra told me that he was Corporal, so I should address him formally.

"Le...vi..?"I slowly let the name roll on my tongue, as if I was caressing it. Petra nodded.

"Yup, it's Levi. Corporal Levi...."she laughed. I saw her blushed at the name, I didn't need anything else...because from that moment, the pieces suddenly fit together.

She likes Corporal Levi...I like Corporal Levi. I wanted to frown, but I refused to give in to my emotions. I wanted to detonate everything in my path, but that would be just another one of my suicidal thoughts. I was angry, at the same time, I wanted to be cunning and maybe use her. My heart says that I should continue our friendship, denying my love for Corporal Levi...keeping it locked, so no one, including me, gets hurt. But my mind says other wise, it keeps saying "she's a threat, kill her, dispose of her... she is your rival now."

I followed my heart.


"Hey, um, Petra...well, do you like Corporal Levi?" I wasn't fully aware of what I said. Petra suddenly froze, then laughed nervously. It was obvious...she likes him, but of course, she will deny it first.

"Uh, no...no...haha. No. W-why you asked all of a sudden?" her face was all red. I felt irritated, but I continued my facade.

"You obviously like him...look at your face. It's red, like a tomato. So, I advise that you could stop denying."I faked a giggle.

"Oh, alright... but then, could you promise to keep this a secret?"her eyes reflected the light of a nearby candle, making it look more innocent. I want to scream, shout...I wanted to let my rage out of my system. We both can't be with Corporal, but we can both love him.

"Yep, sure! You are the first to be friendly to me here, so why not? Besides no other person knows about this right?" you reassured her. She shook her head.

You gave her a bright smile, which she returned also. Her's is probably a true and happy one...mine's noting but a hollow one.Tears threaten to fall off...but I held them back strongly as I could.

"Oh, my~! Look at the time! Well, [f/n], I need to go run some errands...see you later?"

"Yeah, see you~!" I watched her figure slowly disappear into the dark part of the hall way.

I felt tears pouring down my cheeks. I wanted them to stop, but they continued flowing like a broken faucet. Why won't it stop?! Why won't it stop...? I should've known something like this would happen. I wished I listen to my guts...to the uneasy feeling. I wish I never met him, I wish I never fell in love.

I quickly hid inside a storage room while wiping away all the tears that continued to flow.No, I don't want to stop...I'm never gonna stop loving him. I'll what it takes...all of it. And trust the impossible, that he will be with me. I'm sorry Petra, but I won't go down without a fight.

I hesitated, hesitated to fight. Because I was afraid of being hurt. The scene earlier stung me, thankfully it didn't brake my heart...but I'm sure, there will be.  I will take this chance...that hopefully, I'll be the victor. I'll risk it all, even if it hurts...for him.

The story of a battle of wills...between the innocently hoping and the selfish one masked with smiles, is just starting. May God forgive my selfishness, but losing is not my option.